That’s the line from one of my favorite movies, Legend. Ok who screamed Nerd? Anywho I read my friend Scary’s aka Panda Cock post today, and it got me thinking, and since douchebag doesn’t have comments open looks like I gotta make my own post. I turned 40 myself recently and alot of same thoughts circle my head as Scary, with some major differences.
“Fuck the Fame, All I want is the Money” – Tupac
Do you think Steve Jobs had a normal life? Do you think being a great person means being famous. I don’t want the trappings of fame. I don’t want to make a dent in humanity. Here is the thing I am a product of my enviroment, and my choices reinforced those lessons I learned. I could give two shits about someone I don’t know half a world away, do they give two shits about me? Probably not. Am I selfish? Yes. Am I self centered? Yes. Am I heartless monster? No. I take care of those who I care about, and respect, but I was diagnosed as Lawful Evil on one of those poll thingies. Which is true, let’s just say my past is really sketchy. As for Scary, he is an optimist. I wish I could be, I seen the underbelly of human society. I looked into eyes of a killers, thieves, and evil men as I dwelled in the dark places of the earth. I have no such optimism.
“Know your role” – The Rock
I know my place in the world, I know in three generations no one will even remember me like the 99% of the worlds population. I am happy with that lot in life, eeking out my little niche. Would I like more? Yes. Will I be happy with what I have? Definately. To remove suffering one must remove desire so say the Zen Buddists, and I firmly believe that. I strive to do the best I can, with what I have, and given the choices in my daily life, and that’s all I can do. I am a beleiver of fate, and destiny and whatever mine is, so be it.
“It’s not the age that’s killing me, it’s the mileage” – River
Bottomline, one day I will die, will I care whether I was famous, or not, wealthy or not, liked or not? Will it matter if I have volumes of books, or landed on Mars. No I will be dead, and beyond such things.