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We are all Animals under the Skin, Milady

Posted in Other Nerdy Pursuits with tags on November 8, 2012 by theerivs

That’s the line from one of my favorite movies, Legend. Ok who screamed Nerd? Anywho I read my friend Scary’s aka Panda Cock  post today, and it got me thinking, and since douchebag doesn’t have comments open looks like I gotta make my own post. I turned 40 myself recently and alot of same thoughts circle my head as Scary, with some major differences.

“Fuck the Fame, All I want is the Money”  – Tupac

Do you think Steve Jobs had a normal life? Do you think being a great person means being famous. I don’t want the trappings of fame. I don’t want to make a dent in humanity. Here is the thing I am a product of my enviroment, and my choices reinforced those lessons I learned.  I could give two shits about someone I don’t know half a world away, do they give two shits about me? Probably not. Am I selfish? Yes. Am I self centered? Yes.  Am I heartless monster? No. I take care of those who I care about, and respect, but I was diagnosed as Lawful Evil on one of those poll thingies. Which is true, let’s just say my past is really sketchy.  As for Scary, he is an optimist. I wish I could be, I seen the underbelly of human society. I looked into eyes of a killers, thieves, and evil men as I dwelled in the dark places of the earth. I have no such optimism.

“Know your role” – The Rock

I know my place in the world, I know in three generations no one will even remember me like the 99% of the worlds population. I am happy with that lot in life, eeking out my little niche. Would I like more? Yes. Will I be happy with what I have? Definately. To remove suffering one must remove desire so say the Zen Buddists, and I firmly believe that. I strive to do the best I can, with what I have, and given the choices in my daily life, and that’s all I can do.  I am a beleiver of fate, and destiny and whatever mine is, so be it.

“It’s not the age that’s killing me, it’s the mileage” – River

Bottomline, one day I will die, will I care whether I was famous, or not, wealthy or not, liked or not?  Will it matter if I have volumes of books, or landed on Mars. No I will be dead, and beyond such things.

The 5 Most Influential Games of My Life

Posted in Gaming, MMORPG with tags , on June 12, 2012 by theerivs

I’ve played alot of games in my life…I mean ALOT, but there are only a few games that really affected my life, and may have altered the course of it somewhat in terms of gaming. This is not a list of my favorite games, but chronologically ordered by the games that influenced my life.

The Five Most Influential Games of My Life.

1. Adventure – (2600) – Really started my love for video games, sure I was only a square putzing around crappy maps, but to me I was really battling dragons. This game really started me down the path of my love of video games.

2. Street Fighter 2 (Arcade) – I use to battle others in the arcade this game stirred my competitive nature. Though I would move on to other fighting games this one would always hold a special place in my heart.

3. Bard’s Tale (Commodore 64) – This game single handedly started my love for computer RPG’s, The AD&D game Pool of Radiance brought it to another level, but it all started with the Bard’s Tale.

4. Starcraft (PC) - This game was my introduction to online/LAN gaming. When I use to play in college, and heard my foe screaming from another cube, it was pure epic.

5. Dark Ages of Camelot (PC)- My first foray into the MMO world where I would meet some of the best people I ever played games with, and I still play online games with these people 10+ years later.

Honorable Mention goes to NHL (Genesis) for making me a Pittsburgh Penguins fan, my brother always picked the Blackhawks, I was always them. So I decided just to become a Pens fan. 

So these are the games that affected my life, the way I game, and fostered my love for video games, forever shaping my life.


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